Monday, August 25, 2008

boo!



so its been weeks since a proper post, i was just being busy with the customs review--it has sucked every random creative thought out of me. This is what you get when you are technically cramming 4 years worth of customs and tariff materials in 2 months. Hooray for procrastinating thru grad school

In the meantime, my new favorite sesame street scene above

Friday, August 22, 2008

this is where it gets interesting

its all getting clearly now...

...crystal

Tuesday, August 12, 2008

before "the man" edits it out

here's the self-absorbed/pretentious article that i wrote for manila bulletin for this coming friday's issue..enjoy! :)


Opening Credits

I blame it all on my parents and their Betamax copy of Seven Samurai.

Having been brought up in the 80s pop culture frenzy of Japanese cartoons and action series dubbed in English (Shaider, Voltes V, Daimos – if you were ever a kid in this era you know what I’m talking about), I was of course attracted to the Kurosawa classic based on the title alone. Never mind that it’s cover was in black and white, and of course I never bothered to read the synopsis; it had something to do with samurai, and in my child’s mind that’s all it needed to get played.

That, however, is as far as the logic goes in my head. That’s how it ended up in the betamax player – I have no plausible explanation as to why I didn’t turn it off after the first five minutes. I can’t justify a seven year old me sitting though a grainy movie that had nothing to do with the cartoons I so adored. It being the first serious movie I sat through, I could give it credit for opening up my film interest. But I suppose it really just awakened something in me that’s always been there – the ability to get lost in what most first graders would call a long and boring film.


Blockbuster’s Preferred Customer

Strangers who enter my den for the first time would immediately tag me a film buff. I’m guessing it has something to do with around 1,300 original DVDs lining my walls – in alphabetical order. When people pick up on this fact they also jump to the conclusion that I am obsessively neat.

The alphabetical order part I can easily justify – how else do you keep track of more than a thousand DVDs? Don’t even bring up the idea of one of those generic DVD cases – I keep all my movies in their original casings, thanks.

And the film buff part? Yeah, I have no argument for that – but I’d also like to point out that I didn’t just fill my shelves with Citizen Kane, Chinatown and A Bout de Souffle. Sitting among the more serious stuff (like The Simpsons Movie) are the likes of High Fidelity, Jerry Maguire, Spiderman I and II and Bridget Jones’ Diary.

It’s clear from my collection that I am not a film snob – I just love movies. All kinds of movies. From every director, in pretty much any language. As long as it has opening and closing credits, moving pictures and the ability to capture my interest (which when it comes to films is obviously not that difficult), I’m there.

What makes a good movie for me is the emotional response it draws – when it comes to the more popular films I consider it worth watching in my book if it triggers the reaction its genre is supposed to – comedies that make me laugh, horror movies that raise the hairs on my arms, dramas that make me give a crap about the characters on screen and identify with whatever crisis it is that’s going on in their fictional lives. Sometimes unintentional reactions work for me too – if a horror movie inadvertently makes me guffaw out loud in the cinema that’s good enough.

I don’t sit through every movie looking for breathtaking cinematography, Pulitzer-worthy dialogue and life-altering insight – most movies made and screened in public these days are for pure entertainment value, and as long as I am in one way or another entertained – visually, intellectually, emotionally – then I am one happy viewer.

Of course truly great movies – the ones I love and watch over and over again – set a different standard in my head. Over the years I’ve come to know and admire the styles of my favorite directors, their particular unique touch that make the movie truly their work – this is what makes a great film for me. I’ll site Kubrick as an example – he’s fearless, irreverent, almost self-indulgent. He makes a film that would obviously very much entertain him, and what everybody else thinks, he doesn’t give a damn. He would come up with the perfect film for himself, and if you get it, that film would be perfect for you as well.

If You Were Stuck On A Desert Island…

Or, my top ten movies of all time, the ones I would watch again and again if I had only these to play for the next 60 or so years:

1. A Clockwork Orange (Stanley Kubrick, 1971)
You sit through this movie and you just have to accept the fact that you are in a completely different world – what you know and who you are doesn’t count, the characters are people you probably wouldn’t want to meet in real life, and you’re jolted by a side of human nature you never wanted to explore. The senseless violence, the perversity and the weirdness leaves you disoriented for days after watching – that’s what makes it the perfect film.

2. Pulp Fiction (Quentin Tarantino, 1994)
Some films you have to watch more than once to truly appreciate*. Films like Vanilla Sky and Pulp Fiction didn’t really jump out at me as truly great from the first – until I watched it the second time and started paying closer attention to the dialogue. Then I realized what a great movie it is based on the script alone.
Pulp Fiction makes my list before Vanilla Sky does because its characters are way cooler and the interlacing stories more diverse.

*A Clockwork Orange also falls into this category but that’s only because it’s emotionally a bit too much to take in one sitting

3. Der Himmel über Berlin (Wim Wenders, 1988)
Which was remade into “City Of Angels” about ten years later. This movie I loved foremost for its cinematography – every scene in this film looked like a masterpiece. Plus Wenders also depicted angels in a most excellent way – the way I would imagine them to be, thus making the film something I could very much relate to.

4. Bottle Rocket (Wes Anderson, 1996)
This was Wes Anderson’s first movie – one of my favorite directors of all time. This is where I first discovered his whimsical style, his knack for making a neat little package out of scenes that don’t really make any sense. The quiet strangeness of his pictures coupled with a really good soundtrack makes this movie one of my all time faves.

5. The Godfather II (Francis Ford Coppola, 1974)
I wasn’t allowed to cheat and say the Godfather trilogy. If I had to choose I’d have to bring the second one with me because it’s like watching two movies in one – plus I liked the neat parallelisms Coppola made between the young Vito Corleone and the older, tougher Michael.

6. Jules et Jim (Francois Truffaut, 1962)
Not your typical love story, I believe this movie was way before it’s time – even for the French. It delves into love triangles and ménage a trois, and ties it all up with a very appropriate ending.

7. Casablanca (Michael Curtiz, 1942)
The cheesy dialogue, the overplayed and studied delivery of every line, the real old-world romance you won’t find in any film nowadays because nowadays we just can’t pull it off anymore– those are trapped forever in this film, stuff you can only preserve and never duplicate. It just won’t work if you make this film at any other time; this movie is an irreplaceable classic.

8. Raging Bull (Martin Scorsese, 1980)
Having went on about the director attracting me to the film before anything else I had to put Scorsese on this list. And of all the great Scorsese films I had to choose this one. Very trademark Scorsese, with the essential de Niro thrown in as a disturbed prize fighter. Need I say more?

9. Dr. Strangelove (Stanley Kubrick, 1964)
Because it’s Kubrick, and it’s funny.

10. Requiem For A Dream (Darren Aronofsky, 2000)
Though I don’t really make it a point to seek out terribly depressing movies that leave you without even the tiniest sliver of hope in the end, I still loved this movie because of the impact it leaves on anyone who watches it. Much like a bad relationship, you’re left feeling abused, emotionally drained, depressed – but you can’t take your eyes off it and you keep coming back for more – you’re in love.

10.5. Tie between Revenge of The Nerds and the Back To The Future Trilogy
Ok, ok, I cheated. But I had to bring some of the whimsical along with me. Revenge of the Nerds I must have watched about ten times when I was a kid. And the Back To The Future Trilogy – it’s just the perfect 80s trilogy for me. Great concept, memorable characters, and of you pay close enough attention, some really funny inside jokes that only the greatest of its fans would get.

Is It Me Or The Film That’s Out Of Focus?

One sad thing I’ve noticed is that lately it’s been more difficult for me to concentrate on the longer films – the ones without the prerequisite car chases, one-liners and romantic interests. I don’t blame Hollywood – I respectfully thank the movie industry giants for mass manufacturing the saccharin cotton candy of entertainment, the releases I can sit through brain dead from the sugar rush without having to think too much about what this film is really saying – most of the time they’re not really saying much, that’s what makes them so entertaining.

But too much of a good thing can do its damage – my movie palate has gotten so used to the simple flavors of pop culture flicks that when confronted by the complex, delicate essence of the classics my now lazy tongue gets bored. I find myself getting annoyed at having to concentrate to pick up tastes subtler than explosive saccharin.

The good news is the movie taste can be re-trained. That little boy who sat though almost three and a half hours of Kurosawa twenty-five years ago is still sitting in me – he just needs to be woken up.

If you want to truly appreciate film in it’s every form and genre, try to strike a good balance between the fluff and the intense – you don’t have to eschew box office hits as beneath your taste, but you’d also like to explore something other than the latest amusing no-brainer to hit the cinemas. If there’s a film on my top ten list you haven’t seen, any of those would be a pretty good place to start.ss

I look at the 1,347 DVDs lining my shelves and I can proudly say I have a pretty good balance going on there. Yes, I know how many movies I have exactly – I counted.

Saturday, August 9, 2008

fake plastic trees

someone from my distant past who had long decided to accept the fact that we're not just right for each other-decided to call me just a few minutes ago-our first contact in whatever form, years after the incident...when she asked how i was doing, i said "im fine"--its the most overly used generic reply in the english language. She was hoping that i would ask her the same question-i knew this because she was in her uncomfortable silence mode.

She nervously laughed and then proceeded to say these phrases in order: she made a mistake, she badly misses me, she can't stop thinking about me lately and then asks if its ok that she drops by in a few minutes. I was still trying to contemplate what was going on when she said "i'll be there by 2".The repurcussions of this meet if ever it happens is a sure disaster of epic proportions

I dont need this drama in my life, i have other worries to think about. Just when you think you are settled with the routine of trivial nothingness and this past life is burrowed deep into the receses of your unconsiousness. this thing pops up from nowhere and grab you with its sadistic sadly addicting grip.

...but why am i still not texting her not to come.

Wednesday, August 6, 2008

i was bored that day

i am writers block...so i decided to copy and paste this chat log i had a couple of months ago...

you know one of those scams wherein, your friends ym account got hacked and then proceeds to message you asking for an unusual request for cellfone load. This one was a giveaway because i was apparently being messaged by an ex-gf who there is no way be any close of messaging me again after we broke up. So instead of getting annoyed by the scammer, i made it a point to irritate the hell out of him...and here it is

some stupid scammer: wat tym na?
clockworkchico: in manila?
clockworkchico: 3:22
some stupid scammer: favor namn
clockworkchico: yup
some stupid scammer: ask ko lang kung meron mabibilan dyan ng prepaid cards?
clockworkchico: ano provider mo
some stupid scammer: binibenta ko kasi sa mga naka roaming eh then binibili sakin bawat isa ng 25usdollars
clockworkchico: i see
clockworkchico: medyo malayo bilihan dito eh
some stupid scammer: ok lang aantayin nalang kita
some stupid scammer: ok lang?

clockworkchico: sige
clockworkchico: ano kelangan mo
some stupid scammer: globe 500 10pcs ok lang ba?
clockworkchico: eh pano mo ako babayaran..may utang ka pa nga sa aken eh
clockworkchico: yun tinalo mo sa nba betting
clockworkchico: 1,000 pa yun
some stupid scammer: isasabay ko na yung bayad tom ok lang ba?
clockworkchico: sige pano mo nga ako babayaran
clockworkchico: hoy
clockworkchico: nandiyan ka pa ba
some stupid scammer: tru bank acct,
clockworkchico: sige wait lang..pabili ko sa messenger

clockworkchico: kamusta na pala si chris yun kambal mo
some stupid scammer: ayus namn sila ikaw kamusta ka namn?
clockworkchico: nakalabas na ba sha sa kulungan? hassle talaga yun kapitbahay niya na 16 na ni rape raw niya
clockworkchico: eh payag naman sha don

clockworkchico: hoy tins
clockworkchico: 10 lang ba kelangan mo?
some stupid scammer: yup,,
clockworkchico: suplada ka paren tulad dati
some stupid scammer: hehehehe
clockworkchico: ano number mo? send ko sa iyo thru text
clockworkchico: hassle kung itatatype ko pa dito eh
some stupid scammer: hahahaha
some stupid scammer: ok bigay ko sayo
some stupid scammer: +639276627297
clockworkchico: nagpalit ka na pala ng number! baket di mo sinabi sa aken..
clockworkchico: parang wala tayo pinagdaanan
clockworkchico: dami mo kausap..kakainis ka
some stupid scammer: hehehe
some stupid scammer: bago lang yun ano kaba namn
some stupid scammer: wala ako kausap noh ikaw lang kaya

clockworkchico: naalala mo yun time na ginawa naten sa kwarto ng erpat mo tapos napa utot ka? sobrang laugh trip yun
some stupid scammer: hahahahahaha:))
some stupid scammer: wag kana mag paalala

some stupid scammer: nag pabili kanaba?
clockworkchico: oo..na traffic lang
clockworkchico: malapet na sha
some stupid scammer: ganun
clockworkchico: mahsado ka naman naiinip kagad
clockworkchico: smart diba?
some stupid scammer: nyek globe kaya
clockworkchico: ha!?!?!?!!! sabi mo smart eh!
clockworkchico: sandali papapalet ko
some stupid scammer: sus#-o

clockworkchico: kamusta pala yun nasubog mong kilay
clockworkchico: eto naman..favor na nga eh..ikaw pa yun galet
clockworkchico: ewan ko sa iyo
clockworkchico: gusto mo pa ba yun prepaid or hindi
some stupid scammer: hindi ako galit noh
some stupid scammer: ayos lang namn yun
clockworkchico: san ka na ba ngayon?
some stupid scammer: kukunin ko yun ano kaba?

clockworkchico: san tayo magmimeet?
some stupid scammer: ikaw san ba gusto mo?
clockworkchico: don sa dati
clockworkchico: kung san tayo palagi nagiinuman
clockworkchico: eto na yun prepaid cards
clockworkchico: bigay ko sa iyo ngayon
clockworkchico: tara na
some stupid scammer: ok anong tara na?
some stupid scammer: send mo nalang dito
some stupid scammer: mga pins
clockworkchico: bigay ko sa iyo itong card
clockworkchico: ang dami nito
clockworkchico: 20 nga yn nabili ng messenger ko eh
some stupid scammer: ah ok
some stupid scammer: dito mo nalang isend
clockworkchico: ano ba smart plan mo
some stupid scammer: ok lang ano sesend mo na ba? o hindi pa?
clockworkchico: sesend ko na
clockworkchico: sandali

clockworkchico: sure ka na smart ka ha
clockworkchico: tagal mo sumagot..suplada mo talaga tulad dati
some stupid scammer: yup
some stupid scammer: wait ko nalang
clockworkchico: sandali
clockworkchico: sinungaling ka talaga
clockworkchico: sabi mo globe ka eh!
clockworkchico: ano ba talaga
some stupid scammer: globe ako
some stupid scammer: sabi ko kahit smart kunin ko na
clockworkchico: eh smart itong nanbili ng messenger ko eh..ang kulet niya talaga
some stupid scammer: ok nga lang
some stupid scammer: kahit smart

clockworkchico: kiss muna!
clockworkchico: suplada hmpf
clockworkchico: pasauli ko nalang ito..
some stupid scammer: hahaha
some stupid scammer: kis pa gusto
clockworkchico: magaleng ka lang kung may kelangan ka sa aken
clockworkchico: hoy
clockworkchico: dami ka mashado kausap
clockworkchico: bye na nga
clockworkchico: hassle pa yun pag return itong prepaid cards

some stupid scammer: hindi mo ba isend?
clockworkchico: eh di ka namamansin eh!
some stupid scammer: anong d nanmamansin
some stupid scammer: ikaw nga lang kausap ko
clockworkchico: pinapansin mo lang ako kung may kelangan ka
clockworkchico: watever!
clockworkchico: kaya tayo nag break dati kasi ganyan ka
some stupid scammer: sus
clockworkchico: u just talk to me if u want load!
some stupid scammer: sus
some stupid scammer: hindi mo na ba isesend?
clockworkchico: kiss lang hinihingi ko..ayaw mo pa
some stupid scammer: :*:*:*:*:">:*
some stupid scammer: yan ang dami na kiss nyan

clockworkchico: sobrang hassle ito
clockworkchico: scratch ko pa ito
clockworkchico: hanap muna ako coins
clockworkchico: coins pang scracth

clockworkchico: na miss mo ba ako?
some stupid scammer: ikaw na mis mo ba ako>
some stupid scammer: ?
clockworkchico: oo naman!

clockworkchico: naalala mo yun time na nag picnic tayo sa picnic grove tapos malapet ka na mahulog sa bangin
some stupid scammer: hahaha
clockworkchico: nakaka miss mo?
clockworkchico: halos maiyak ka nun sa takot..sinumbong mo nga ako sa tatay mo eh
clockworkchico: tinutukan tuloy ako baril kasi hindi raw kita inaalagaan
clockworkchico: kamusta na pala tatay mo?
some stupid scammer: ok namn

some stupid scammer: ano ok na masesend mo na ba? sample ka nga ng isa
clockworkchico: nagpapalet muna ako ng pera..wala ako coins eh
clockworkchico: pwede ba sa 5 pesos pang scracth
clockworkchico: or 10 pesos?
some stupid scammer: nyek matagal paba?
clockworkchico: eto na nga hawak ko!
some stupid scammer: sample ka lang ng isa...
clockworkchico: puro load nasa isip mo tina..ano ba yan
clockworkchico: ayaw ko na nga..mashado ka naiinip
some stupid scammer: sus ang arte mo namn

clockworkchico: kayo pa ba ni tolits?
clockworkchico: dami mo mashado kausap..ewan ko sa iyo
some stupid scammer: hindi
clockworkchico: ano hindi..diba patay na patay ka don
clockworkchico: tuwin nanonood tayo ng hiphop showdown sa plaza..ayun ang crush mo
some stupid scammer: wag na nga kung ayaw mo isend

clockworkchico: nakiki[agkwentuhan lang ako eh..masado ka naman mainipin
clockworkchico: eto na
clockworkchico: sinascratch na
some stupid scammer: cge type mo na?
clockworkchico: gaano muna kayo nagtagal ni tolits?
clockworkchico: yun totoo ha!
some stupid scammer: hindi kami nag tagal... dahil manloloko sya:)
clockworkchico: sabi ko na nga ba eh! nakita ko sha nung isang araw kasama si jhennifer
clockworkchico: sa may tambayan ng mga adik don kina manang
clockworkchico: wag mo sabihin sinabi ko sa iyo ha!

clockworkchico: eto na yun unang number
clockworkchico: 5
some stupid scammer: san?
some stupid scammer: oo
some stupid scammer: send mo na ang tagal mo namn
clockworkchico: nakuha mo na yun unangnumber?
clockworkchico: 5 yun 1st number
clockworkchico: gets mo?
clockworkchico: ready ka na sa 2nd number?
clockworkchico: bahala ka na nga.dami ka mashado kausap
some stupid scammer: ok
clockworkchico: ano ok? nasulat mo ba yun number 5
some stupid scammer: oo
some stupid scammer: bilisan mo nmn

clockworkchico: sabihin mo kung ready ka na sa 2nd number
clockworkchico: eh para sure..ayaw ko ulitin eh
clockworkchico: sabihin mo kung ready ka na sa 2nd number
some stupid scammer: oo ready
clockworkchico: 3
clockworkchico: kuha mo yun?
clockworkchico: 5 tapos 3
some stupid scammer: oo

clockworkchico: sabihin mo kung ready ka na sa 3rd number
some stupid scammer: oo ready gago...
some stupid scammer: bilisan mo
clockworkchico: ahhh gago pala ako ha..yabang mo naman
clockworkchico: bawiin mo yun!
some stupid scammer: :))
some stupid scammer: ang tagal mo kasi
some stupid scammer: kakainis nakakainit ka ng pekpek,:)
clockworkchico: nakuha mo ba yun 1st number
clockworkchico: at yun 2nd?
clockworkchico: ano na?
some stupid scammer: ano kana din
some stupid scammer: paisa isa ka
some stupid scammer: ang bagal mo
some stupid scammer: aalis na ako
clockworkchico: sige nga..ano yun 1st 2 digits?
clockworkchico: di ka ata nakikinig eh
some stupid scammer: ang 1st putang ang 2nd inamo
some stupid scammer: gago:))

clockworkchico: sayang ito..
clockworkchico: bahala ka na nga..
clockworkchico: masasauli ko pa ba ito? or gusto mo sha
some stupid scammer: ok lang makupad kaba sa pagong eh
clockworkchico: tinatanong ko lang kung nakuha mo yun 1st 2 digits eh
clockworkchico: mahirap na yun magkamali no

clockworkchico: eto yun 3rd
clockworkchico: 4
clockworkchico: tapos 0
clockworkchico: then 0
clockworkchico: kuha mo?
clockworkchico: nandiyan ka pa?
some stupid scammer: letse


i win! :)

Monday, August 4, 2008

this little piece of cheese

sometimes you just meet someone unexpectedly and smacks you in the head with a killer smile-the one that peers thru your being. You try not to get attached, involved or any other often used adjective that relates to being pulled into someone's reality, but how can you not when its contagious to a fault. Its the way how people are more in tune with the complexities of the world by looking at the subtle creeses within it and straightening it with their their naive easy going manner. Im still on the fence whether this is something that will just quickly cross over or will make a complete stop, im intentionally trying to pace myself and see what your idealism has to offer, and so far i cant stop smiling...

Friday, August 1, 2008

...

ive been awake for 24 hours straight...you win this round on the account of your passionate stories and childlike awe. I might just as well let you win everytime